Songs of the Moment
An incredibly stupid name for a concept I came up with. I'm by no means someone of like, musically cultured taste or anything. I would say that I am, uh, musically disinclined. I am musically inept.
HOWEVER. There are times when I listen to a song, album, or whatever, and it really resonates with me! Sometimes it's because it's special, sometimes it's because my autism means that I have to loop Jamie Paige's BIRDBRAIN for literally eight hours straight while half-ass coding this website. It's all at the whims of my weird as fuck brain!
And I thought of doing like, a "song of the week", or like, "song of the month" or some shit, but realistically? I wasn't going to remember to change that. So, instead, Song of the Moment was born! It's a little thing where I display it prominently on the main page, I come and write something special about it over here, and I keep them logged indefinitely. Isn't that fun?
An incredibly stupid name for a concept I came up with. I'm by no means someone of like, musically cultured taste or anything. I would say that I am, uh, musically disinclined. I am musically inept.
HOWEVER. There are times when I listen to a song, album, or whatever, and it really resonates with me! Sometimes it's because it's special, sometimes it's because my autism means that I have to loop Jamie Paige's BIRDBRAIN for literally eight hours straight while half-ass coding this website. It's all at the whims of my weird as fuck brain!
And I thought of doing like, a "song of the week", or like, "song of the month" or some shit, but realistically? I wasn't going to remember to change that. So, instead, Song of the Moment was born! It's a little thing where I display it prominently on the main page, I come and write something special about it over here, and I keep them logged indefinitely. Isn't that fun?
The Leaving - Marcus Carline
8/2/2025
Obviously, I'm a filthy Homestuck. This is a known quantity. I've been a huge fan for over a decade and have avidly read everything they put out INCLUDING the epilogues and all of Homestuck 2 (so far). I've listened to the Beyond Canon album all the way through more times than I can count, it's just such a solid album front to back, and really all of them deserve to be talked about, like, Exclusion Zone and Now I'm a Villain both fuck SEVERELY.
It had been a while since I'd listened and the line "Nothing scares me more than God / And Nothing cannot sustain" got lodged in my brain and I forgot what fucking song it was for AGES and I kept thinking it was some big like, sweeping rock song or something, but like, notably nerdy, Old Gods of Asgard type shit, lol. I had to really work to find it with just a few lyrics. As soon as I found it, though, I have not stopped listening to it.
The Leaving is obviously meant to be profoundly sad, just like, generally, but there's something about it that really, REALLY speaks to me. It's the story of SBURB, the idea of leaving the entire planet behind to become a god. It's about leaving every single thing you love behind you to move on. It is death, rebirth. "Running scares me more than God / but staying can't sustain" is so fucking MISERABLE. It's something that sucks ass every time. It always fucking sucks to leave. It sucks to walk away from something, even if it sucks. "I'd rather tear my heart out / But I can't stay here". It's something I've dealt with far too much in my own life, and mirrors the way I've dealt with a lot of abandonment issues with people around me. Nothing cannot sustain.
But the leaving is still the same.